Getting involved

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first of the day of the list and alert getting the walls right to do it in an autobiographical sort of way looking in the camera thing always bold now tank top started this YouTube thing sure had hair still never mind a make up for it right getting involved have got three ages to go at you with and 1517 and 23 you heard of it about me at age 23 so will go back to age 15 and one of these 3/bulb memory type things of being in a maths class that is mass lesson for Americans and at that particular time Mr Steele who took the matter lessons arm seemed a decent enough bloke but I really wasn’t at all interested in maths at the time I just given up on it I given up on most schooling really and learning and was taking really not much notice of much and I’d taken my watch offering class and it was the last lesson of the day if I remember rightly within Thursday but that’s irrelevant detail and I was watching my watch which had these ancient things cool hands that ticked round and those watching them to ground in taking obviously no notice of the mathematics teacher teaching the mathematics and the overall thing was so evident that this was terminally and read slow going but it was such slow going in maiden effect on me that made me at thinking it knocked out other thoughts and one of the thoughts was just looking at your watch slows things down and it was kind 15 at the time some thinking well I actually slowing time down in the another thought in the day dreamy sort of way come to a 15-year-old and I thought one experiment came to mind which I did note on a piece of paper I was always one for noting things on bits of paper that I should or would on my way home by an ice cream it was a would of been a lolly he would been a zoom at the time which was as different flavoured water yellow at the bottom orange dark pinky red and then a really dark red right at the top and it was even ice cream it would be better with a real ice cream but still that some sure that’s what I would have used and I was going to look at my watch and eat my ice cream to see if it slowed that down because I remembered that the eating of ice cream always seem to go snap so quickly like that and maybe I could make time stretch out and stretch out the glorious feeling of eating an ice cream so I remembered the type that that came to mind but the time was stretching out so much that other things came to mind that would it be just extends you waiting a positive or a negative because I had a maths lesson which was a negative and it was inks it was exaggerating the negativity of the maths lesson the maths lesson by me looking at the watch who was becoming worse and worse because it was just going on and on and on but I was presuming that the positivity of an ice cream would be extended and that would be going home the Norman on and on so it was a kind of experiment-ish and this time the thing slows it down but seems to extends you wait the underlying whatever it is that going on so that was that and in the thoughts came that the art lesson when I’m painting as I say always enjoy painting and art lesson comes and goes just like that I is not even so much time that is involved thought I could although I could definitely say and art lesson that go quick like that where a maths lesson goes alone like that but it was more that that was a positive quickness as well over what were obviously was already be 45 min on 90 min redouble lesson to you Mohammed double long quickness of goodness as well as a stretched out Agnes and are I will done experiments on art with ice creams and other things but that was a definite hand/bulb memory in that maths lesson that started something or if not started something it continued with a leap other things that had been cogitating in the old Nick brainbox right so let’s jump on till page 17 and now I’m going to work full-time and I still got the memory of all the school staff and all this idea about time going slowly what I’m going quickly and I was working out I am all this out working stuff and how is best to do it because I worked out at 17 how many years I would have to do it for up until my retirement at 65 which was the standard and allowed of mass again because anyway was an awful long time and when you’re 17 its multiples of your age you think it awfully jolly long time so I remember this is another flashbulb memory walking down the main street going to the my store I was in a store selling things with loads of other people I remember have my round brown coat on and is working out well if I’m going to do this for all these many years I think I prefer it to go like an art lesson and rather not like a maths lesson so I was working out techniques where I could make it not like a maths lesson but not by lot but like and art lesson and the thing to do was to get involved you’ve got to get involved in its things and if you get involved it washes along how well you have not time to note the board of it or what you don’t have the board of it so it does Walsh but it needs to get on sleigh rails with nice wash to it so I did that I got involved very involved in my working day now this wasn’t please management sort of our working this was please Nick Sorter working management was often not pleased with the way Nick did things but I got myself really involves so much so that stores open six days a week we were often obviously only paid to work five I would often work six without the pay for the extra one because I was so involved in I wanted to be there and doing it and again note are often causing trouble for management but amusing myself no end and it was going quite well I really quite enjoyed those for first couple of years of working and you’re okay let’s jump onto 23 Saab into the South France comeback try to do this painting and decorating thing and was in the whole cogitating and thing for our what to do with my future again from their now what we have here is internal and external things what I just told about were all the internal things for me I’ll call internal external anyway titled all the internal is now the external is when something like when I was 15 classic teenager external I’m just talking life in general what I can see of it and judge it to be the big external life thing in life is rubbish standard teenager nothing to be shocked about normal teenager life is rubbish at 17 I had come across no reason still a teenager but an older working one no reason to believe that life wasn’t still rubbish but I was looking around at other people of the way they seem to go about life and everything and I’ve house it still seeing overall it rubbish because I was soon to learn that as I at school wanted the term to whence I could have some holidays or weekends or whatever it was it was the same two people working that would just often just working 50 weeks so they could do this two weeks of holiday and I was thinking this is not quite right the external world is rubbish so I get to 23 and done I can do more advanced ways of saying the external world is rubbish but it is still in my head I seen the South of France and all that sort of England done lots of things in the world let’s say that life in general as an overall concept was still rubbish and I’d looked at lots and lots and lots of other people are people in the South of France had lots of money are older people are younger but very privileged people that were no stars at age 20 something and pop note of it seemed to make sense that anything could be called the external world was anything but rubbish still people where working are to retire they didn’t want to retire they want it stopped working in their wanted stop working at the weekends and they could go that school on 23 so we’re back to playing golf and sailing and thinking well so this working stuff really doesn’t agree with people and they got to do it for an awful long time and I’ve seen the families of workers I kind of explained in the other video and that seemed not go too well either the whole thing about this external life was it was rubbish and the main thing about it being rubbish was the oppressive feeling of having to do something one’s intrinsic freedom will should that ever exist as a reality was mentally being oppressed or impinged on by having to go and do something that reference to Richard and his comment yesterday but that was the whole thing they didn’t mind playing golf because they could choose to play golf or saying they were choosing to sail but this working stuff now and a lot of things at home didn’t seem to agree with either a lot of things didn’t seem to agree with them and I could see the people at home with most of the things they give was orientated towards a television and they were going to watch that if in doubt for the next 50 years and the whole thing seemed to add up that life nobody quite worked out yet what to do with it for most people whether they admitted it or could see it or not life externally is rubbish but internally and this is what happened at 23 I could see the internally you could call in a selfish sort of way that worked been used in the comments and I agree with it internally I could make my life okay by getting involved so I’d done my getting involved in store I do my getting lots are much getting involved are down and self France three years although he was it was a lot of play none died done getting involved in the painting and decorating but then there was the choice did I want to get involved in the painting and decorating in other words being selfish thing it would have kept me happy enough but I knew that as time wore on I would be more involved in the external world which was intrinsically rubbish and it seemed that I could maintain my selfish world where I can control my getting involved in life going works if I got away from that very established British world and went to the south of France now this are stop it there but that’s the an overall picture of what everybody can do getting involved in this selfish way can make your own life go watch but it will always be in an overall global package when most everybody else most everything else is just in the external world which is rubbish knowledge that there you by